As most of you know, I endeavor to live authentically and transparently, as is part of my journey this lifetime. I am at a turning point in my life right now, and my spirit guide has told me it’s time to expand my openness to a whole new level.
I write about this in my book “Musings.” My spirit guide, whose name [now] is David, was once a physical presence in my life in the form of a cockapoo named Shadow. He was my best friend in that form for ten years, and stood by me through the end of my first marriage and my divorce, and the abuse I endured during my ill-fated second marriage. He was devoted to my son, James, and acted as his personal guard dog from birth. When James was almost 3 years old, and I was at a very low point in my life, Shadow chose to leave his physical form and go into spirit so he could communicate with me and guide me. He appeared to me in a meditation on the third day after his transition, and has been with me ever since. The worst times in my life – and the most unwise decisions – all happen when I neglect to consult with David.
I have told very few people about David over the years because I feared derision and rejection, and being branded as a “flake.” In fact, I think that’s probably why I’ve been dragging my feet about “Musings” for a long time, because the story of David is in there, and there’d be no hiding any more after that. But I’m ready now. I’m still afraid, but the pain of not living fully has become greater than the fear.
I am a medium. There’s a difference between being a psychic and being a medium. A psychic can foretell the future. A medium can communicate with non-physical spirits. I’m not a psychic, but I’m most definitely a medium. I sometimes “get” things from spirits of people who have departed; and I very frequently hear from the spirits of animals, both ones who are currently living in form and ones who have departed.
I’m not sure how this fits into making a living, or even if it does. I just know it’s a huge part of me, and I’m sick of hiding parts of myself for fear of not being accepted. So there it is, my biggest secret revealed, my biggest fear laid out there for all to see. This is me, take it or leave it.
Damn, this feels great!
